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IF....

I am able to choose again..
I would choose to raise up my kids,
stay with them until they are no longer need me.
And what I will be?
YES,be alone all rest of my life.

I cry all the time whenever I think of them,
especially when I was cooking the food they like,

I should not take them away from their father
and then dump them back to him.
I am so irrisponsible and feel so guilty.

Many women don`t have a good marriage but they still stay because of kids.
And I am so selfish to choose my happiness.

Am I happy in States?
Yes,I am very happy.
But I rather choose to make my kids happy.....
Give them a home ....

Bill loves me very much otherwise I would leave and
GO HOME.....